My little white boy SERIOUSLY NEEDS A TAN! haha. He looks so white and awkward with a flower here its just so funny haha.












Went to double O to celebrate Jingyi's 21st!
The last time I was there, Cheryl and I managed to sneak into O bar with our Giordano colleagues when we were 17! lol.
They played R&b for about an hour woots!



Sneaking around with the birthday girl with my fav Jagerbombs!












The soon to be officially married couple. Oh my, looking at them makes me wonder how it'd be like when its my turn. Its a little scary sometimes.




Some waterfall drink that got the husband drunk! Have never tried and will never try.














First time in a club with my dearest, gosh. Thanks for piggybacking me hahaha.
this boy has 2 more yrs to go, i wonder how im gonna survive many activities without him.:(

















I'm turning 20 next week! Omg, i dont feel well about it. :(
I probably feel that I havent accomplished enough and time is running out.
But then again, we cant stay young forever!
Visited my aunt's new condo after my birthday dinner with mum and dad, the place is so peaceful! Makes me hate my house even more. Its 5.30am now and the neighbourhood is already making noise. We need some noise control over here!

MY EXAMS ARE OVER OMG, LIKE FINALLY. I'VE WAITED A THOUSAND MONTHS TO ANNOUNCE THIS MOMENT.
haha, I remember how me and earlene were so happy on Wed, we didnt know what to say to each other!

Last week was pretty torturous since I was kinda risking my accounts paper by having only 2 hours of sleep for the paper. Working for Asian Pokershowdown was cool though! All the girls were great :)




I love the dress and the pokersticker. YES YES, im the shortest :(
Because I was wearing very low heels that night ok! Heels are deceiving.



With ClaireJedrek, the host. She's really pretty!
I'm still waiting for the picture with PaulFoster. Because I was beside him! hahaha.







































My baby is back too! :D
Too bad he has to study and now its my turn to do nothing.haha.
Every time he's back i feel as if i'm living in another world, in the EAST side world. It's a refreshing change every time I step into pasir ris.




And I'm finally gonna shoot for Collection 27 tomorrow after so long. Most probably be up by Sunday, so do lookout for it!

Dad asks my maid: "eh din din, how many times you bathe in 1 day??"

Maid answers from the bathroom: "huh? I'm showering,washing my body only, im not bathing."


HAHA, i just thought it was funny.

Dilys 21st Fiesta Birthday party!! Her interesting mexican style party.






The moustache twins.

















Dilys smashing the poor horse.




Sue winning a cactus for best dressed of the night!





The woo family, so cute! Love her dad hahaha.
Happy 21st dear!


Poly mates reunion! lovelove!



Crystal jade with Oli! Miss you girlll.

Taking a break with kitty!









Not the best position of me haha, but shes so cute here!






she's so naughty now, runs around the house, bites people and wires and bites my books!




Plus the video kitty never wanted you to see!
haha kitty caught in the act.




And my sister playing with her while she sleeps. Cute nonetheless!




After a break over the weekend, i cant believe im 2 days away from my marketing exam paper! Havent been able to concentrate much :(

Plus, went for casting with Oliii yesterday and im glad it was worth it!
Gonna be working for Asian Poker showdown on Friday. :D

Which is really dangerous because the event ends at 2am and I've got a 10am Accounting paper the next day! Argh. Really hate the exams. It spoils everything man. Im seeing my boyfriend next wed! Omg, cant wait!

I'm officially obsessed haha.





Kitty slept next to my maid yesterday under the sheets like a baby!










Kitty taking a poop, literally!



Her leopard print ball.




sleeping.



sleeping! She sleeps all day!







I'm tired..




Okay just a few more head shots..







And I'm done! Told you i was obsessed!




Lover boy's coming back soooon! :D

Alright, Off i go to studyyyy!!

SAY HELLO TO KITTY!

My new boyfriend.



I'm so happy because we finally brought it home! Plus, my dad has said Yes to bangkok :D
So double happy! I even brought my sis swimming with me ytd and I got a proper tan, so triple happiness for the weekend!



It couldnt stop meowing in the car, poor cat was trying to find her countermates.
But its really sweet and fell asleep as I carried it around the house. Gets pretty attached to us after awhile.






We even bought a little pink choker for the kitty haha.


Arghh love it to bits! Thanks summer! :)

Excited because I'm gonna take a look at my first few manufactured pieces tmr!

I cant believe its already Friday, and its the 16th of October! I know, theres nothing specially significant about this date but it marks the official end of my first sem in university and I just cant believe it. I'm home on a friday night and I randomly decided to clear my livejournal inbox. And wow, cant believe how much has changed ever since i started blogging like a year plus ago? This is truly my portal of memories. 2007/2008 was wild, and pure fun and sincere. As months go by, everything just fades, the happiness, the sincerity and meaning of existence. Maybe as we get older, we indeed get lazier, and thats all it takes to waste the amount of effort taken to build up and develop a relationship. Smiles fade, we talk less, wrinkles form and we eventually grow old and die. By clearing my inbox, i cant help but read through all the past comments, livejournal entries and amuse myself with my past youth and liveliness. Something that has already disappeared after numerous failures and disappointments. I really miss those times, when relationships were so strong. Nowadays, everything is just a smile and go. Whether its sincere in the first place, is another question. So the question right now is, is it worth to give the relationships another go? Is it worth to try making up for lost time? Unsure of whether the other party would reciprocate and put in the same amount of effort? I shall try but I'm afraid of disappointment again and again. The past 3 nights have been horrid. Actually, every night has been terrible ever since I had that major quarrel with my dad and after he said those hurtful things. Every time we quarrel, all the time and effort put in to build up the closeness between us ends up like a glass of water that falls to the ground, splatters and remainds unrecovered. My body has been unwilling to accomodate to sleep. The brain just wants to get up and SCREAM at him, and confess all feelings to that damn man. Last night was pretty bad. I went to bed specially at 3am, (already so much earlier than usual) switched on my ipod,hoping to sleep within the next 15 min. But even while listening to songs to stop my thoughts from wandering, the mind just refuses to switch off! I had to literally force my head into sleeping, its like an ongoing battle between body and mind. It sounds like nothing here but its really tough if you've gone through it yourself. Its very frustrating when you know your body needs rest but you're unable to sleep and you end up suffering the next day. So I think i managed to drift off for awhile and suddenly I was jerked awake when the music on my ipod stopped. I took my earphones off thinking "oh nvm, its only 4am, I can still try to get some sleep.." I didnt want to open my eyes because the moment i do, i'm awake again. But I eventually did because I could hear sounds coming from my maid's bedroom which meant that it was time for her to get up. I opened my eyes, stared at the clock and started to curse. Seriously. It was already 6am and that meant that I probably only had 1-2 hrs of sleep because I was drifting in and out. And it doesnt help that I was rolling about in bed for 3 hrs the night before. I was so fucking frustrated with myself because I knew i couldnt sleep anymore. So yeah, i was so damn frustrated I started crying and memories of what happened the previous 2 nights came back to haunt me and that made things worse. I honestly think i'm so troubled to the extent that im harming myself. and people kept telling me i look so tired. youre damn right i am and i cant help it. I've come to realise that I've got to help myself. No use telling people how tired you are, how sad you are, because they are not you. So stop seeking consolation in others. its useless. I hope 2009 would go away quickly because its been terrible for me. I hope i'd be able to end it in happiness because it didnt start in happiness. It started with someone fainting right in front of me and I thought he was gonna die.
Anyways, since its a friday, everyone deserves to be happy, and I'll shoo and start preparing the clothes for the next collection. :)
On a sidenote, I received this text msg from my mum this afternoon.
"Esther, pls add me in your facebook. im your mother. thks." I sense some wholesome sarcasm in there. Hello mum, I hope youre reading this. If you want to know me, talk to me. Dont demand an add on facebook because i deserve the right to control my privacy. thanks.

Movie with the lovelies on Saturday! Went to catch 500 Days of Summer. Not a bad show!
Not the typical lovey dovey happy ending love story.






Bought Chewy Junior cream puffs on the way back after collecting my Anna Nucci Shoes.

Daddy said YES to the kitty! Which was after my sister started crying when he disagreed at first of course. Maybe I should involve my sister in every situation that includes persuasion, hmmm. Or maybe I should perform some crying act myself, which im sure i'd do very well at.

We tried to study! lol.

















Steamboat reunion dinner. It was all dinners dinners dinners with the boyfriend when he came back donkey weeks go. Unfortunately, I'm all alone again. For the next month at least.


I really wanna adopt a kitten! From my customer-friend. I'm really excited to bring an innocent member into the family. Probably someone or rather, something I can turn to at night and treat her like my very own. My sister's really keen about it too! But too bad for us, we've got to beg the old man and probably bribe him with money before he accepts life's little pleasures. Its another 4am teary night. Wonder how long i can stand this.

My shoe spree has begun. I just splurged $69.00(okay maybe its not so much of a splurge) on 2 pairs of platform heels from Anna Nucci.
New shoes yay! Its hard to understand but girls really cannot have ENOUGH shoes. I just get sick of them after i've worn them out for a long time. New shoes are like new clothes.

I've got my second econs test tomorrow and im still here. sighs. sometimes im pretty upset with myself. But theres one thing i definitely cannot stand, which is to repeat myself. esp to someone whom i assume know me best. you're right, i really feel that you're not how i hope you'll be like. and thats something i cannot control. oh well. you'll probably get sick of me eventually. i know it.

I wish i had the time to blog but noooo. Some things I strongly wanted to point out though.

Is anything even GENUINE anymore? Even songs have lost their meaning. tsk tsk.

I hate empty promises. I thought it was never nice to say something and never do it. or end up not doing and trying to keep mum about it. give excuses probably when you probably never even TRIED. Oh well, 2 cents worth off my head.

Happy things, I finally saw my first high destinction for my test! hahaha. omg i finally see the light in 4 years. but i cant be too happy though, exams will never be that easy.

MEGA SHOE SPREE-ING I GO!
BANGKOK HERE I COME! QUICK QUICK.

Decided to post a random picture of someone who makes me very angry yet very happy at the same time, i wanna strangle his head. hahaha.

Esther Leong just took 410 pictures and changed almost 40 times in 2 and a half hours. I'm all geared up for COLLECTION 26 Yay!

2 papers down and 1 more to go. That's all I've been going through these past 2 weeks on my own. Why does everything feel like eternity when you're alone.


When is ever enough? I dont think we'd ever be satisfied. I wish I could feel an eternal pool of satisfaction, then maybe I would feel so much better.

My dad managed to get me a partially new 2nd hand laptop. I refuse to download msn. I have every application except msn. And I'm caught up in a world of my own, where only skype and the boyfriend exists.

I've never been so excited to see Lovebird's face. And I mean the both of them.
Absence does wonders, but will it eventually lead to more troubles?

Family is redundant, especially when it gives nothing but quarrels. what if families never exist, would it get rid of obligation troubles. I think strangers have far more respect for each other. Its amazing how strangers relate

Just some random thoughts which doesnt seem to link. Gonna sleep with my marketing textbook tonight and dream of holding my lovebird the next night.


Some funny videos to spice up the post. Shit this doesnt make any sense. I've become so boring, lol!

Ah how could i forget! I was excited when I saw this video because of an interview done during the last Flea Titans flea market at Mount Sophia 2 months ago. I'm going to the next one with my boyfriend in sept yay!
I'm at 1:04! Stumbled stupidly because the interviewer said my opening line was wrong! lol.



Anyhows, its been an emotional week, dont know whats wrong with me but oh well.

There's always a first time for everything.
I was on the highway on Monday which had 2 major accidents at the same time which caused a massive jam and left me rotting in a cab for 1 hour, amounting the cab fare to $32.00. Highest price i've paid so far for an afternoon cab ride. and i wasnt even heading to changi airport or something. why oh why do i stay in jurong.
I watched a movie alone in the theatre for the first time yesterday. I was so scared i sat curled up in a ball on my own. Well, technically speaking i wasnt alone because I came with Alex but there were no more seats left becus he bought the tickets last min and we had to sit separately! But thats a first. I was watching "the orphan" and it was so good, better if i had someone to hang on to. But it was cool having my name called so many times in 2 hours becus the main character's name was esther haha.
I went sun-tanning twice in the last 2 weeks, and twice the sun disappeared on me after an hour. I seriously have no fate with the sun at all but i managed to get a tweak of color on me though.





I look like an aunty here. But at least i was under the sun.



This aunty here hiding under the shades.. lol.



I was topless. nah im kidding.




















Went to SAKAE SUSHI for our feast!!

We click click click, and ordered 10 over plates for ourselves lol.



I wanna get this mouse!














The food was soo good and it was funny because we kept ordering and ordering to make our money worth and ended up over-ordering. hahah. So we tried stuffing everything down and dang, did it keep me full for the entire night and the next morning.


Just did my hair yesterday!





Love the fringe and the color.













Collection 24 and some lady gaga videos to boot!

Hola! There goes my 1 week holiday, come and gone. It has been a memorable week though, with the horrible flea market, my first lady gaga concert, meetup with my long lost missing girls, and im gonna change my hair color! Oh yes, baby's coming back in sept!!! all for meee yayyy!! hahaha.



Skipped saturday's lecture for this terrible flea market at home club.
Publicity was so lousy gosh! I was so pissed and bored. shall not elaborate on this.



Met up with my ex-maid for her birthday dinner at earl swensens who's finally pregnant!
woots cant wait to see her baby, due in october, thats like really soon!
Its really nice that we still keep in contact after these few years even after she got married and I'm glad she managed to find a good man who proves to be a great husband so far.
Hopefully nothing changes. *crosses fingers. I think its so scary being pregnant! All the years of workout gone to waste, hmmm i wonder whether its worth it haha.


Lady Gaga concert on Wednesday with my long lost babe!
I havent seen this lady in 2 months and im glad we got to go to the concert together!




Luckily we came early at 5pm, within half an hour the queue became like that!









We came prepared with our floormat and delicious meepok and honeydew milk tea!


while other people just stand hahaha.



Then they gave us some F1 fan which came in VERY handy after that.



Met MONSTER JO! Who covered her face because of a pimple hahaha.











beautiful teethh woots


babe, I just realised that the girl on your tank looks like lady gaga lol.


Finally at the entrance!







Waiting waiting waiting.. This was the worst part of the concert.


They let a Dj and a beatboxer entertain us for 2 freaking hours.
We stood there since 7pm and the concert only started at 9.15pm!!!
Ticket says 8pm, seriously, redundant writing.
Halfway through the 2 hours, people were fainting becus it was soo hot and the crew was throwing water bottles around, the experience was pretty terrible.
Luckily me and cheryl managed to hold up! I think we lost 2kg of water weight please.



Emo shot. haha.








And so, the princess finally appears after 2 whole hours.
In an alien outfit as usual.


I realise she's not that tall.











The bottom she wore was like a thong, the people in front must have gotten a great view of her perky ass. I took a whole lot of videos, couldnt post much up because the file size is too big but here's one of them. this took 1 hr to upload!



Was a great 1 hour performance overall, although i spent most of the time holding the camera up, great exercise for my arm.



To phuture with olivia, the missing girl. haha. to be honest, the standard of phuture's r&b wed night has dropped so much, its no wonder that butterfactory is so highly raved now.
they should seriously stop using training djs who are utterly horrible. Enough of clubbing though, it has become a hobby of the past, and me and olivia treat this as exercise for the hips hahaha. So besides the horrible music and having circle attacks, haha, i was so surprised to bump into my boyfriend's brother and his girlfriend! Plus, my ex classmate and my ex-colleague whom i never expected to be dating together. ah life is full of surprises.



My cotton on bodysuit and shorts! I love cotton on!



Marche dinner with lovebird!


Finally a catchup after so long man.
The food was pretty good!







The calamari rings are heavenlyyyyy..







Headed down to toni&guy after dinner for "hair casting".
We talked about so many things on the cab, I really hope we achieve our individual 5 goals someday! :D



Random picture of my sis with my cucumber pads. hahah.
I think she looks like a baby alien, so cute.





I love my new studded leggings!


Took a picture of my hair color for memories because its gonna change tomorrow!
I'm a little afraid bout doing the hairshow for toni&guy because they're gonna change my hair color! But I guess its nice to have a diff hair color for a change! Since i've had this for some time. :) Quite a number of people thought this hair color was nice though hehe. so yeah, anticipating for tomorrow!! *crosses fingers again. I bought a whole bag of clothes for the next collection again so i'll have a new stack of clothes for school hahaha, Plus a new hair color for the next shoot. so entirely excited, but hopefully it'll turn out well.

Anyhows, these are the many faces of my lovebirdd.


sneaky/tekopok smile.



stoned/concentrating must be oogling at some pretty babe.



Hungry chef at work at 3am.



Squeezing pimple haha.



with doggy


Blur


Shocked


Time for bed.

Love you dear! :D i'm gonna take up every living second of your time when you're back.
so excited for sept!

3rd day of school woo! And I pretty much survived haha. Attended lectures on time, not toooo late. Woke up early to shoot for Collection 23 this morning before rushing down to school, I was seriously soooo tired and halfway through the lecture, we were already writing on each other's walls on facebook through our mobiles hahaha. I'm really glad to have company in school, I cant imagine coming to school sitting alone in lectures everyday and there's really not much opportunity for interaction and to make new friends because ppl just come and go for lectures and thats it. Cant wait to join a CCA! haha, i really wanna join vball but because of my lousy knees, its a plain risk because i wouldnt want anything to happen again sighs.
Anyway! I'm just particularly pissed about this middle-aged man who approached me at raffles hospital while I was withdrawing money. (what a place right.. men have such dumb tactics nowadays, except my boyfriend's hahaha. ) He started asking me whether I did events, blah blah blah, and he's in this event company that looks for girls for events in nov/dec period, then i told him that i was running to school and you know whats next, ask the girl for her number. I insisted that he pass me his name card and apparently he "just joined" this company called "touchandtach" and thus has no namecard. Then he kept insisting that I pass him my number so he can contact me for events blah blah blah, and I was like no, im busy, you pass me your number i'll "call" you when i'm free. Old man didnt wanna leave! So he wanted email instead and i threw it to him and left. goodness. I just tried googling this company up and there's no such fucking company old man. I mean seriously, i dont get why i always get approached by the wrong type of people, why dont I ever get the serious stuff. :(
First it was some fake modelling company who turned out to be a freaking social escort service and now this, :( sighs! maybe its just not in my fate la uh.


On to happier things! My dad got his new car today yay! It's not a bigger car, he downgraded to a smaller car hahaha, toyota VIOS, but it has all the new features and best thing was, his car number plate sorta appeared in 4D today haha, its not the exact sequence, but yeah he didnt buy some bidding thing thus he didnt win any cash. damn it! we are never that lucky arent we? oh well, lady gaga's concert is next wed! Hope it'll be good.

STARTING SCHOOL TOMORROW YAY EXCITED EXCITED! haha. yeah I know its just school but I miss sitting for mass lectures and talking to people. Cant believe I've already had half a year break oh my goodness, my brain is seriously full of mould (and clothes) right now. Need to clear it up with ACCOUNTS, ECONS, MARKETING... hmmm, sounds interesting enough! :/I have school the entire week from monday to saturday but the following week is clear followed by a 3 day school timetable. Which means I'm hoping to still have time for TRESLOVECHIC and my clothes haha. Plus continue my driving license and go suntanning wooo!! I havent gone tanning for 2 months already and I seriously look like a white chicken. The weather has been so sucky nowadays, not much sun in the morning aye! Or maybe its because I live in the little island of jurong where everything is dull and moody. Oh well. I hate living in jurong where cab fare is always over 10 bucks to anywhere!!

Went to attend my lovebird's MISS SINGAPORE WORLD FINALS AT Shangrila Hotel on Friday!
I was so happy when you got into FINAL 8 you sweetie pie!!
The food was pretty good but the portions were enough to fill my sister's tummy, perhaps. What were they thinking seriously. Olivia's mum is so nice! If only my mum had half the charisma she had.. Peishan, olvia's brother's girlfriend is so pretty and nice too!
A pity he's a little bit of a spoilt brat. I dont like spoilt BOYS. oops.



At the table with peishan and oli's mummy.



I was seriously so not dressed up because it was a last min decision for me to attend the dinner, lol.



With the reigning internet popularity queen!!




My lousy attempt at being a winner. haha.


Anyway, http://treslovechic.livejournal.com has a new banner thanks to my lovely LOVEBIRD NUMBER 2. Love it! Will try to improve the layout in time to come :)




Miss those days :( Im hoping daddy will allow me to aussie in sept! :(


SCHOOL HERE I COME!

My grandma's days are numbered. Its really saddening seeing her suffer like this, final stage of dementia, she couldnt even remember my maid's name today.She shit on the sofa and she didnt even know! Plus she cant walk properly and she cant remember anything and repeats the same words all over again. My grandfather scolds her all the time. Well thats not surprising looking at how he laughed at me when i twisted my knee a few months ago. its just really sad. I remember vividly how she was like when she was younger. She used to criticise my dad, belittling him because he didnt earn as much money as the other child. She made things difficult for my mother and just cursed everyone all the time. She even told on me when i was younger, making my dad so angry, he banged the bathroom door open when i was still bathing and screamed at me. She also complained about me to my relatives, that I was rude to my dad, didnt come home, stayed out late all day. Sadly, she was a pretty 'evil' person. Now i see her like this and i really believe in god's punishment. Maybe I'm wrong, maybe i'm biased but i've lived through these years in this house and i know what really happened. I feel weird living in this house sometimes, so much 'evil' and so much hatred and so much memories, its better to leave them behind. I really wanna get my own house soon.